For the past two weeks, people have asked me what I need. I often haven’t known specifically, and people have already stopped asking (I was told to expect this).
I will tell you that I haven’t been able to make myself eat yet today, and the idea of going home alone to eat, or even going out somewhere to eat alone, feels really awful.
So I guess the short answer is this – I need folks to keep checking in on me. I still feel like I am drowning. I’m not exaggerating.
I am really scared that I may not make it out of this. I feel really overwhelmed and really alone.