January 14th, 2017. 9:20am.
Emotionally worn out and still engaging in fruitless “there’s got to be a way to change this somehow” thinking, even though I don’t want to.
January 14th, 2017. 9:53am.
This resonated hard because she said all she wanted to do was show me ‘good love.’ She showed me great love, and so so so much more.
January 14th, 2017. 11:27am.
I’ve lost about 40 pounds since I began seeing Diana three years ago. About 3/4ths of that weight loss was from work and grad school related stress. The other fourth was lost in the grieving process over the past month.
I’m not sure if I should be thankful or not. I’m worried about having to buy new clothes soon.
January 14th, 2017. 12:20pm.
Sometimes it’s still really hard to breathe.
January 14th, 2017. 6:37pm.
The ‘waves’ really feel like the flu today. I am so angry and so so sad. My body feels it as much as my heart. I’m so tired of this.
January 14th, 2017. 10:34pm.
It’s so difficult to watch the world go on when mine feels like it has stopped turning. It’s Saturday night, the night Diana and I always spent together, and I haven’t been able to find a soul to just be with. This is hard and feels like it’s getting harder.